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This weekend was the birthday celebration for my very good friend, Meredith.  We have known each other/been friends since high school and has been instrumental in me making new friends and including me in so much and making me feel so welcome being back in the city.

Friday night, a bunch of us met up at a wine shop we frequent quite a bit, that has super yummy and delicious food, for a celebratory birthday dinner. What Meredith didn’t know is that we were surprising her and going tubing the next day.  After a great dinner and fun night, I had to head out to take care of some things…get things ready for the next day, gas up the car, lunch prep, etc.  

Saturday morning, we all met at Meredith’s house in the morning and surprised her and she was so excited!  We caravanned to Asheville to go tubing.  We took the shorter route and it was supposed to be around a 2 hour trip down the river.  WELL.  4 hours later, we finally got to our destination and out of the water.  The water was low and we had a headwind, so that created some issues and slowdowns.  I put on sunscreen before I left…we all put on sunscreen.  And I. got. BURNT.

I was in SO much pain.  I got aloe and a spray with lidocaine.  I looked like a lobster, every movement hurt…but on the up side, I never flipped over, so at least my back side was burnt.  I spent all of Sunday basically incapacitated on the couch…other than having to run out to the store to get vinegar as people had told me that works in removing the sting/burn and the redness.  Maybe you have to do that in the first 24 hours?  It didn’t do much for me.  It’s weird…I can see my body holding onto water and feel where it’s hard because of the water retention.  Great story, huh?  I went to work today and everyone commented on how red I am and how I’m walking so slowly because I’m in so much pain and on and on and on.  Apparently, I was the hot topic of conversation today.

So, needless to say, I’m not running anytime soon.  Just walking to my car and having the sun shine down on me, made me feel like my skin was going to burst into flames.  I was thinking about hitting the pool, but the thought of putting on a swimsuit over these burns makes me want to lay in a ball on the ground, rocking back and forth.  Dramatic?  Sure.  Oh well.  Maybe I’ll be able to go to the  apartment gym and walk (slowly) on the treadmill….although that requires pants…and pants don’t go so well with burnt legs.  Oh well.  I’ll figure it out.  

We celebrated a good friend’s birthday tonight and it was SO fun. I have to say, not much ranks higher than making a dessert and having people fight over who gets to take the leftovers home.

We went to dinner at this wine shop that we frequent (and they pretty much know me by name at this point) and it was PACKED tonight. We had so many random guys coming up to our table and trying to hit on us…heck, one even tried to hit on me. Although, I have to give the guys props. You’re coming up to a table full of girls and trying to make a move and/or start a conversation. Not the easiest thing to do!

It was a great night but I’m pooped! And I have to be up bright and early tomorrow because we are surprising the birthday girl with a tubing trip in Asheville.

My only goal right now is make it to Labor Day weekend. It’s a marathon. Not a sprint.

Monday night I got called out for the ALS ice bucket challenge. And Tuesday night, I accepted that challenge, did it and nominated my people. (I know some people don’t like it and think it’s stupid and yada yada but I think it’s fabulous. You can’t deny the number of donations and the amount of donations received during the same time last year. And it was one of the most under-funded diseases. Do what you can. Okay, off my soap box now).

Well I had to post that video online and tag people in it. I’ve seen pictures of myself and I haven’t liked them, but that video??? Oh my gosh. It’s horrendous. I have a tire around my middle that is unabashedly out there. And my arms…well my arms can’t even hang by my side because they’re pressed out and hanging on the side of my “tire”. I know a lot has to do with the fact that I hurt my back and wasn’t able to workout for awhile and haven’t been able to crossfit in over 2 months and I have lost muscle and tone. But I can’t deny my ever expanding size and waistline.

I fully believe that you should love yourself no matter what. And while I think I have a fabulous personality (thank you very much) and am fun, I can’t get that video out of my head…I can’t help but think, why would anyone want to hang out with me? How could I expect anyone to date me? How could I possibly think my coworker was interested in me? And on and on.

And I just haven’t been able to make it quit running through my head. And not in a, wow this is motivating and I need to get off my ass (def needs to happen) but in a that is depressing, how do I have friends, I want to just go in a cave and never come out or see the light of day kind of way.

I know this will pass. I hope it will pass. But this feeling really sucks.

oh, this week

I had plans.  Things happened.

This week started off chocked full of busy and Monday was my only night off.  I’m an introvert, so I recharge by being by myself.  And I knew that wasn’t likely to happen later in the week (eh, wrong) so I wanted some time.

Tuesday - was challenged Monday to the ice bucket challenge and as my friend’s Mom was diagnosed with ALS last year, I wanted to continue to get the word out and help in bringing in donations.  Did the challenge, walked to get dinner and back…maybe 1.5 miles.  It ended up being a later night because my friend who was supposed to do it didn’t do it until late and then I still had a drive back to my place.

Wednesday - Was supposed to meet my friend for a run.  Then she pushed it back an hour, then at 7:31 texted me to say she could leave her place now…we wouldn’t be able to meet up at the trail until 7:50 at best…sunset is supposed to be 8:05 and I’m not a fan of walking on the trail at night.  It’s in the woods and not lighted.  I just don’t feel safe.  And I didn’t think a 10-15 minute walk was worth it.

Thursday - I’m now going to try to get up early and wog.  I was supposed to surprise my friend at night for her birthday.  But that got cancelled, so hopefully I can get a swim in because hot dang, I need to exercise.

Friday - My friend’s delayed birthday dinner.  Which will be a late night.

Saturday - Surprise all day plans.

I’m doing better about bringing my lunch to work, so that’s at least a plus.  But I need to work on having stuff to bring to work to eat for breakfast because if I eat at home (which I haven’t had time for because…sleep), I’m hungry by like 8:30.  But I need to be more selfish with my time and more disciplined in getting my exercise in…which will hopefully include lunchtime walks as well.  Every little bit helps, right? :)

I just had the weirdest dream

I was getting married and the wedding was officiated by the woman who led my old small group in richmond, and her husband. Who was apparently in a thong at some point. I didn’t see him in a thong, I just heard guests talking about it. And then he was in clothes again and my husband was in a thong. And then they turned to the guests and said, “we’re going to play a game. We are going to say a word/description/situation and you tell us if that describes Elaine or kindness.” This really confused me and hurt because I thought, why am I not kind? And then I realized it’s because I don’t see my groom, so I have no idea who he is and therefore no name. But apparently he’s kind.

And I guess a guy I went to high school with was there and had gotten married right before me but was now in regular clothes. And the fire alarm went off 3 times. The last time, we were at the altar and had to go outside and then someone called me by name and asked if I wanted to go inside (think air conditioning) and I said yes! But ten some people were already inside, including the guy from high school, with his wife.

So. Weird.

What does it mean?????

Today is my friend, Candice’s birthday. Unexpectedly, it went from having her and her friends over to my parents house for a bonfire to: breakfast together, making her birthday Mississippi mudslide brownies, dinner with her and then the bonfire/hangout with everyone. 

I remember the first time I met her, back in December, and I thought to myself, she is so cool and funny. I HAVE to be friends with her.  Turns out, we have a lot in common and she had her own weight struggle and has lost a LOT of weight. We even joke that we share the same brain because we make the exact same comments on things and just think so much alike.  I have been so lucky to have a friend like her come into my life, especially here in Charlotte. I am blessed by her friendship and thankful for all the laughter.

Today is my friend, Candice’s birthday. Unexpectedly, it went from having her and her friends over to my parents house for a bonfire to: breakfast together, making her birthday Mississippi mudslide brownies, dinner with her and then the bonfire/hangout with everyone.

I remember the first time I met her, back in December, and I thought to myself, she is so cool and funny. I HAVE to be friends with her. Turns out, we have a lot in common and she had her own weight struggle and has lost a LOT of weight. We even joke that we share the same brain because we make the exact same comments on things and just think so much alike. I have been so lucky to have a friend like her come into my life, especially here in Charlotte. I am blessed by her friendship and thankful for all the laughter.

I got busted trying to take all 3 of these photos. My stealth powers are pretty much nil right now.

It’s a good friends birthday today and after some unexpected last minute change of plans, we had breakfast together, I’m about to meet her for dinner and then a whole bunch of people are coming to my parents house.

Helloooo red face and humid morning. 

My training group was this morning. Two miles of rolling hills in humidity. I ran more than I did during the mile test but I was definitely at the back this morning. They have ‘sweepers’ and while I appreciate them being friendly, I have just woken up and I’m not a morning person to begin with so I’m not much of a talker and I told them this and they were fine with it and just kept on talking. 

I stupidly forgot to wear my watch this morning spindles the lady who finished right before me and was wearing a watch and apparently she had hers set to loop or something but she thought it was around 33 minutes for the 2 miles. 

That’s about a 16:30 mile. Which is faster than my first mile test. But again, I’ll have to see what next week is and bring my watch for an official time. 

Either way, I got up and exercised this morning. Really need to ice my back pronto and hopefully I’ll see some more improvements.

Helloooo red face and humid morning.

My training group was this morning. Two miles of rolling hills in humidity. I ran more than I did during the mile test but I was definitely at the back this morning. They have ‘sweepers’ and while I appreciate them being friendly, I have just woken up and I’m not a morning person to begin with so I’m not much of a talker and I told them this and they were fine with it and just kept on talking.

I stupidly forgot to wear my watch this morning spindles the lady who finished right before me and was wearing a watch and apparently she had hers set to loop or something but she thought it was around 33 minutes for the 2 miles.

That’s about a 16:30 mile. Which is faster than my first mile test. But again, I’ll have to see what next week is and bring my watch for an official time.

Either way, I got up and exercised this morning. Really need to ice my back pronto and hopefully I’ll see some more improvements.

The president of my company is coming for an “impromptu meeting” with my department today. No one knows he’s coming except for a hand full of us. So this was my attempt at looking professional and cute but not like I tried too hard. I’m sure I should be wearing hose to be in line with HQ but….life’s a compromise, right?

I still think I look cute. AND I didn’t put on my cardigan until I got into work and walked around a bit. This is a sleeveless dress and I’m SUPER self conscious about my arms and how big and fat they are. Soooooo, I’m taking this morning as a win.

The president of my company is coming for an “impromptu meeting” with my department today. No one knows he’s coming except for a hand full of us. So this was my attempt at looking professional and cute but not like I tried too hard. I’m sure I should be wearing hose to be in line with HQ but….life’s a compromise, right?

I still think I look cute. AND I didn’t put on my cardigan until I got into work and walked around a bit. This is a sleeveless dress and I’m SUPER self conscious about my arms and how big and fat they are. Soooooo, I’m taking this morning as a win.

I did it. It helped (even though I look pissed).  Each day is a choice.

I did it. It helped (even though I look pissed). Each day is a choice.